Hello again .

I wanted to write a notice saying that Im deleting this account .

I am really pleased with how well i did , and the works that managed to come out are something i am really pround of , but also you . all of you that comments , inspired or helped me when i needed it ; thank you .

Like i wrote before , i have a new dA :

actsha-dora is my user . .

please feel free to view . . as the works online here , will be no more , well most wont , i may re add some favorites

thank you again ,
your dA friend :]

Hello everyone !

I havent been on often and I find myself writing that often now . So , I have thought of a new idea ; to start over .

I have created a new account on dA and pretty much everything is new . . Lol , my msn , myspace now dA .

So heres the information :]

actsha-dora is my new account name , and if you ‘d like to ask anything else of me , just reply :]

p.s :
oh , I restarted simply because I needed to . : D

Right now , I have the odd sensation to spill out my words on to paper or least out of my mind . Maybe its because my mind makes pure and simple things , poor and complicated . Thus , I may be putting a lot of things on here lately . .
not really tonight because im not here . . but whenever im online.

Though this isnt mine , I love it , and would love to share it ;

Almost Lover - A FINE FRENZY

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
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This is a song that my best friend from a far sent me . I wasnt really feelng happy and he sent it to me to feel better . .
Its a great song , and makes many feel better . Here 's sending to you :]

Alas , Im writting about my self . Things going on with me lately .

The cruel and depressing week of exams is finally over :] alhthough i had only 2 to do , it was still sad hard work. English i think i did really good , but with Science , not so much .

So , after this long weekend , i have the new classes . . im kinda excited . . new start :] exactly what i need . .


The feeeling right now ;

I am finally realizing things , things i should have realized a long time ago . This song has actually helped . . being with someone thats an almost lover . . sort of feels like that . I know better now , and realized that maybe its not the path im going to take. Hard to describe , where you love , and truly feel it , but know that he doesnt . .

so thats something that im currently work on getting over . .

so . . other than that and studies . . everything else is alright . . i mean sure there is sometimes the feeling of leaving and not coming back , but thats what stress does to people. .

plus , this gives me a great time to find out things about myself , or so more .

thing is , things change , and i never know whats going to happen . .


gab <3

Hello friends,

Again, I know, I havent wrote for a while, and normally it hasnt really been on anything, well, too special. But hopefully i can change that.

Currently, Im stuck. Im stuck in school, Im stuck in not knowings, and Im stuck, well just general, with my life. Dont get me wrong, there is nothing, well, not much wrong with my life. Sure theres some issues but everyone has those. But its just, that there is nothing really planned for the future.

So, me being the smart person i am, pff, I watched the Guardian last night. It inspired me, as it has so many other times, and now I figured that I am currently, as you sepected, stuck.

Ive realized that theres one thing that i want to have come out of my future, and that is to help others, but how can I do that? Yes, yes, i know, thats not the easiest goal, but im not exactly aimming for easy. Im also not going to end up being a firefighter; Id like to think im strong, but not to that extent; i cant carry shit.

So I started thinking of different things, and a couple of things came to mind:

Of course, while watching The Guardian, I generally thought that being a coast guard would be the best thing to suit me; Im a good swimmer, and Im not scared of heights, but then in the same reguards, the training is extreme, Im not that good with open water, and I generally dont like swimming in the ocean.

So I slept on the idea, and started thinking of more.

Maybe I could be in the military, but then again, Id been around that all my life, and no offense to anyone, but thats not what I want to end up doing for the rest of my life. But it may be a good way to start it off.

See, I thought of my arts, and how I loved technology and people. I thought of becoming an arts techniton ( i know, spelt wrong ). This could work, I mean i could be there with cameras, and photography, and like my mother said, it may be the most peacful and important feeling job you have; ' to be able to aim and shoot and not hurt anything'. wow.. now i really feel this could work.

Maybe police, or csi. But i generally wanted to use my arts and english to help. I just want to do something with my life, that i enjoy and helps everyone else around me. Like no offense to anyone, i mean this in no way to sound rude or disrespectful, but i dont think art that i do, can help anyone. Id like to think it could be inspriing, but thats only going to happen once in a lifetime.

So, last night, I made a plan.

After my school activities are finished this year, Im going to get a job. =] my friends, oh heavens my friends, are all starting work and have all applied, some already working, to a favorite store. I hope to join them as well, but Im just hoping i can get in. Two of my three friends up for this job are working at the new store, that seems sweet considering they are a couple, and the other one, well hes hoping i work with him, as, well, yes I hope i do too. Are you kidding, I know it may not be the best, we probably end up getting fired all together, but its all fun. =]

As for my life with school. Oh my, I have my exams coming up in the next week or so. Before that, of course I have someother one exams that like to take up early. Love how teachers do that. =[ But from my understandings, I dont have school for 4 days after this friday, so it kinda works, and basketball is put of this week due to the importance of education. Im just glad i dont have run to be frank.

So basketball, basketball has been fun. But thats why i havent been on lately,due to the trips, which were fun and the practises and such, i havent been able to go on the computer for general fun or interest, but more so homework. But other than that, basketball is good. I played my first game before we left for our trip, I actually didnt do half bad =]

Me and my love life.

Meh, Its fine, really cuase i dont really have one. Two guys and thats really saying much. One ive never really met, but now i dont think i really do, and then the other one, well hes someone that im not sure what i really feel. But grades and work are more important right now, and the other stuff will fall in place.

ART!!!

My art, well, generally speaking, I havent had much time. Writting a little bit there, and doddling here, i have done a little, but when my exams are over, I will get them on here. Promise =] Oh, and I have started a song, I have been listening to different types of music lately and its kinda inspired me to write one myself. Plus a friend asked me for one. I hope it turns out alright.

Next term..

Finally next term is coming. I will have history, math, bio and ART!!! Im excited and hopefully I get to express myself in art. History, i have a couple friends in there, and then math and bio, well a lot of people are in =] As long as i know someone =]

So life in general is good =] I have thought of my future, and hopefully after the sad marks from my exams.. lol.. hoping not.. i will have a good rest of the year. I also do hope i get the job i wanted. Hopefully =]

Hoping all are well,

Gabriel

Hello =]

Im not sure if anyone has realized or anything, but I havent been around that much lately. Im sorry for this, I have been away to trips and have been really trying to catch up on work.

Christmas was fun, I spent it with my mom, and talked on the phone with some family and friends. I got everything I wanted, mostly just spending some quiet time home, and then I found that there was an other surprise.

The next day being my birthday, I hung out with my two good friends. We went to a movie and then came back to my house and ordered out pizza. Then later on, mom decided to give me my cake and everything, and I was going through the pesents. I loved everything I got and had been really happy when I opened the last gift.

It was an airline ticket to go to Victoria, BC for the end of the year. I started to cry. A good cry though. I had a lot of fun there.. i will put some photos on when i get some more time.

Then I got back, and i was sick.. sadly i had to go to school the next day, but was not allowed due to my fever.

continued later... <sry>